Something called Life...

One day M holding my mom's hand and walking towards school; the next day m holding a high school certificate and walking into a college; and today
Here I stand all graduated looking at the vast world; which seems to be a pool of endless possibilities. 
















Most kids in my batch have already join some xyz colleges but me? I'm kinda waiting for the inspiration to come...Don't get me wrong "M not an Artiste" Its just that I guess I've always had my life spelled out for me. Like they said Computer Commerce has scope today so I adopted it as my main subject. Then they said that Computers are the future so I bachelor-ed in computer applications.But now I guess Its time I finally take time and get to know what I actually wanna do, My Interest...Not some stupid scope wise decision.. Life has been good till now...I've got everything I ever wanted (well almost..) But "What do I want now?" is the puzzle m kinda trying to solve...
They say m young n have my whole life to decide.... (Well M turning 21 next month....Could any1 specify when do I exactly get into the adult category??? but Whatever...!)
I see friends of mine going to these classes for competitive exams and I joined in...But What I found there was a barricade that trapped me and  the teachers were like "Study! Time is Less! Focus! Aim! Hard-work! Run! Get me a Sandwich!" (I guess the sandwich line might be because m hungry right now) Anyways I mean I barely attended the classes for a few months and I already felt the need of taking anti-depressants.
Its not like I don't like to study or m lazy but running in a race in which m not even sure I want to win a prize seems worthless. So I quit. M now taking a sabbatical. Living the slow phase of life n working with it. Doing things I love, meeting people, sketching, writing a long lost blog of mine :-P
Now everything seems right.But I m sacred...Damn scared! I mean the sabbatical is good enough for me but the mighty world remains the same and m sure it will come running someday to bite me in the ass.

Anyways ad-mist of all this I forgot to mention the beautiful distraction I found on the way...

God? Can your weird creation called man get any more gorgeous.? Its like all m surrounded with now is tons n tons of guys who I don't know for some bizarre reason seem pretty interested in me.... Yea yea I'm boasting! but you get the picture right?...now that I take time to stop n take a moments breath love life also seems to be full of possibilities! ;)hehehe crazy-me! but whatever..
All m concerned about is to get to the enlightenment path soon before It really gets mandatory for me run the race...cause it would be better to know where the hell my bulls-eye is before I shoot the arrow....

Well that's it for now...I promise to keep writing at regular intervals from now on....
cross my heart....
;)

Take-care
God-bless!

The Check List...

I once read an article in the readers digest about this doctor who loved his i'pod extensively. He kinda used to have this mental checklist everyday where he crossed off First his Wallet then this keys and Cellphone and then his 'pod before leaving the house.
Anyways this got my mind running. I guess everyone has a checklist for everything they do.

Like me I have a To-do list most of the time. Like when I go out for shopping, or while studying or when I check out a guy ;) lol. I don't write it down or anything cause jolting it would means making things permanent Although I end up finishing most of the jobs mentioned on the list; Following it precisely is not my cup of tea. I envy people who have that thing in them where they follow a rule book or a catalog as instructed. I JUST DON'T DO THAT. I'm a good orator but can't memorize script. A great dancer but can't be choreographed. So writing down something to-do just doesn't happen that way. But still i love having a check list (a mental one obviously!)

Other day I was watching a movie and added another element to my To-do checklist. "GET A CAT" but then I realized that i already own a stupid dog; So the cat idea would have to wait until I move out of home or till the dog dies(Which I kinda don't wanna happen unless he chews on any more of my shoes!)
But there sure are some Lists that I'm pretty sure won't have much variation ever.
Like the list about my future life:

1. GET A JOB.(The kind where I'm like this super cool girl in sexy heels with a briefcase and have these super important things to do and super awesome people to meet.)
2. GET A BEAUTIFUL HOUSE.(With this great interior.Like the ones you see in the movies)
3. BUY A MUSCULAR CAR.(Don't know....but have always been attracted to those)
4. GET A CAT.(PREFERABLY PERSIAN AND NAME IT PRINCESS(I know kinda lame name but i like it! so whatever!))
5. GO TO SPAIN ON VACATION.
6. FALL IN LOVE WITH THE ONE.
7. GET MARRIED TO HIM.
8. HAVE KIDS (OLIVER, ORLANDO AND ABIGAIL)
9. GROW OLD HAPPILY ENJOYING LIFE WITH MY FAMILY.

(F.Y.I -"I own the copyrights of this list so don't even think of cheating. Go find your own things to do")

Anyways this was me. Right now I Haven't crossed out any of those things mentioned on the List but I hope I get started soon... ^_^

There is also this other list that I guess every girl on the planet has worked on at some point of her life. The Mr Perfect list:

• He should be the one with whom I can speak without having the fear of sounding stupid(which in my case happens a lot, Trust Me!).
• He should be Cool.I mean the type who knows what to wear and what to speak and what to do.
• He should play guitar.
• He should be in touch with his emotions.But never cry over stupid things.
• Should have sense of humor.
• Should be strong enough to protect me.
• A little Flirty,A little overprotective
• Should know how to cook
• Should love to photograph.

Yea guys I know! I overdid myself a bit.....Fine Maybe alot while making this checklist but hey a girl can wish,can't she!? ;)

{I know from the past few posts I have been bragging about love and "The one" But that seriously doesn't mean that m onto any hunt and kill chase for Some random dude like a friend of mine thinks!(Yea Ojas I mean you! Huh! You don't know me! M just an optimist person who has a dumb dream like every other girl!)}

Well Moving on I also have lists for getting ready for college:

• Pick out the best combination of dress.
• Apply makeup. Do the hair.
• Recheck if the cloth combination works.
• Throw some books into the bag.
• Get the Id card,wallet,mobile,earphones.
• Touch-up the makeup. Do hair again.
• Finally Get the keys and drive off to college.

Yea I guess you can rofl. But the checklist is what keeps me going.

Every List in my life is important. It kinda gives me the courage and expectation to look forward to the future and hope and Dream.

I know Maybe most of my check-boxes would remain unchecked till the end but that doesn't matter.I'll just put in my best to achieve everything I ever wish for.

So readers..What are you waiting for?

Grab a pencil and make a to-do list for life.

God bless! 

The Valentine's Week

Behold... The Valentine's Week has commenced..!

 I mean....Don't they give us enough Crap already the entire year about Love and "Happily Ever Afterz" through all those stupid movies (and ofcourse who can forget the real life luvvy-duvvies we have around us!?) That is it necessary to give forth a day especially for the Love Birds?!
Hmmmm@ Guys seriously m not anti-love emo type of girl but trust me...This Valentines day hullabaloo is getting on my nerves BIG TIME..! Its like...All you see is Love scribbled over everywhere...And it is kinda cute.... but when you are single; trust me these thing tend to drive you crazy!

Well I like to call this crankiness as the Valentinez syndrome!

You know I actually have caught it...
Lets rewind back to the last week of January shall we? Well the buzz started and some of my friends had already began discussing the surprise they should give to their partners, advises on what gift would be best, or which roses to pick And automatically I started wondering If someone is getting something for me too.THIS WAS A BAD BEGINNING. Then I made the mistake of going into Archies,(should have stayed at home and watched kaho na pyar hai on set max) but anyways.... saw a cute "I love you Tshirt" And almost bought it for my hypothetical boyfriend who was hypothetically planning something special for me this valentines day(arrrgggghhh...disaster!).
Then again while watching TV I always run into these stupid ads about Valentines day discounts and offers. And God..! why the hell had Cad-bury Company people produced that ad with the super awesome hunk gifting box of extorted chocolates to that stupid gal( I am better than her..huh!)...
My Desperation meter was rising faster than the petrol prices! and i so hated myself for that!
Friends an advice-
NEVER EVER CALL YOUR CRUSH AFTER GETTING HIGH...!
I wish i hadn't..i really wish i hadn't....cause not only I ended up making a complete fool out of myself but also completely wrecked our friendship(Stupid cellphone!). Another fact that totally screws with your mind is the random Facebook statuses of your Happily Engaged Friends (I so hate you Mark Zukerberg!)
They are like "awww...i love you jaanu","awww...You complete me","awwww...This Valentines day is gonna be the best ever","awwww....I so lucky to have you in life"....I mean WTF..?!
OK...GOT IT..! YOU ARE HAPPY..! Why the hell screw up with rest of our minds? :-/
Anyways its not like i didn't use Facebook to let out my frustration....Most of my Past updates include chronologically-

• I'm so single!
• Prince Charming where are you?
• Looking out for love!
• Wanna fall in love!
• Single on Valentines day!

After these statuses even my 3 yr old nephew could make out that m SINGLE,SINGLE & SO SINGLE....!

But alas it didn't do me much good rather than attracting the attention of a bunch of losers!

Anyways It was after that I decided to do something about my pathetic condition and started believeing in the..

Yea Yea it may sound a bit crazy but ...Yes i believe i can live without men! And moreover this movies helped too!-

And then i changed my status to-

• Happily Single!

So Here i am right now still suffering from the Valentines day Syndrome Without anyone to celebrate it with this year. But now I've More strength and determination to Not look for anybody and live on my own until I find "The One"( yea right i still believe in destiny;what do you want me to do? Get the chastity vow...?)

Sometimes Finding love takes time and sometimes you have to just wait and make a fool out of yourself until you finally bump into Mr Perfect till then have to enjoy the desperation and frustration and buy chocolates for self.  

Happy Valentines Day Folks!!!

(B.T.W- how many volumes does this kill bill movie have anyways?? :-P please somebody let me know asap! :)

On a bus ride.

 I love to ride in a bus. I don't know when this love began but yea its there deep down inside..

Every time I get on board I can't help smiling.(Mostly leading people to think I am nuts,but whatever!)

Maybe this is Because When I look outside the window I can see the world in all its fast phase or maybe because for a span of time I actually become the part of a group moving together where everything's new. Every person is a stranger with a different story to tell and reason to travel.

But Well before going furthur Lemme clear up one thing.

This.Is.Not.Me.

Although it pretty much is the same situation as mine.A sweet young girl on a bus ride with smile on her face, gathering up all that the small bus window would offer. The view from her pane might be something like this...

 Or maybe something like this....

Or even something like that...

 But my story Differs...

Firstly "God..!!! Who puts all that makeup while travelling in a bus?!" Here in North India as the new trend  goes We girls tie up our face like a terrorist only eyes visible. 

Naah...Its not out of custom Like in some religious groups or anything. Its simply for the protection from the scorching heat and dust (and sometimes comes handy in wading off roadside romeos too,but we won't get into that :-P) 

Anyways all I wanted to say that this is how you may picture me riding a bus...

Yea yea I know.. M nothing like this but hey you got the picture right?

Anyways the running world outside of my window differs too..

The scenes of the daily life to be honest are the most alluring moments which make me kinda loved being the part of this awesome world so much.

I see Faith binding different people...

 I see lives finding joy in the simplest of things...

I come across Kids all groomed up for school...Making me go back in time to my childhood days!

Campaign Posters screaming out all blunders to fool crowd....

 Kids all jolly after school hours...

 The busiest part of the metro crowd walking in its own phase.....

 All this makes me wonder that m so lucky to be the part of this ultimate universe. Being a link in this great chain. Making my contribution as little part as it maybe. Life is just perfect for everyone as the way it is.

Be it A mom getting groceries from the store, or a new employee going on his first day of job, or an elderly couple travelling on their second honeymoon (or going to the doctor..who am i to judge ;) lol..) But all in all different motives different lives different people together as a stream flowing in one same direction reminds me of my favorite quote-

"Promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep."

A Rosy Mess

I have a bunch of dried roses in my room…

Some have retained their beauty; others just look hideous…

Some still have ribbons on em; others just have dried leaves for company..

But for all, one thing that they have in common “A Story”

Every rose had its glorious moment when it was picked up to be presented…

I never thought of the roses in any such way, I just liked to preserve em….but It was at one fine day when some people walked into my room that I pondered if it actually had any more significance than just being a dried up stuff…

My friend Neha n I used to hang out together a lot… mainly gossip and…. (Yeah…just gossip! Nothing else!) So it happened that she noticed the vase at the corner of the room sitting modestly with a bunch of dried up roses in it and happened to be wonderstruck by them…. I was still blabbering about the cute guy we just saw on the road and never noticed that she was no longer listening.

“Where did you get these roses from?” She asked. “You know Olivia, Rohan gave such a rose to me when he proposed after our first date. It was raining and then he brought out the drenched rose from his back-pocket (I’m still speculating how a rose can survive a 5 mile long drive in a boy’s back-pocket…but hey! It was her story…had to take it as it came).

Anyways back to Neha..

“ He said that he loved me and wanted to spend his entire life with me…and Olivia you won’t believe me the rose was the most beautiful one I had ever seen!”

(Duh’uh! Why would I believe that? But whatever..)

“You know I still have that rose with me, and it’s still as beautiful as ever!”  She  was at the brink of crying and I still couldn’t believe that the rose was pretty. Nevertheless she left shortly after that.

 Again the other day I had my cousin over; she too saw the roses and inquired- “Olivia, where did you get these roses from,huh?” and  also never waiting for my reply started-“ You know, I had a crush in my school life and we used to meet at the lunch time  and he gave me a sunflower the day he proposed…It was the most beautiful flower I had ever seen and I still have it!” (It felt like déjàvu@!!!)

Anyways she too left and then later that night an aunt next door saw the flowers in my room, (and there it goes! AGAIN!) –“You know Olivia, when I was in college; there was this guy who used to go to office in the same train with me. I knew he liked me cause he used to steal a glance every opportunity he got and one day he gave me a lemon…I preserved it for long-long time but then I graduated and left and don’t know what happened to it….By the way Where did you get these roses from?” And she left!!!

Gawd..!!! Why does everyone keep asking when they don’t want an answer!!!

But I've realized one thing for sure even a hideous thing like a lemon or a deteriorated rose can become beautiful and worth preserving if you have a loved memory with it..

As for me I've decided to burn those flowers and put some plastic ones in their place. And For where I got my roses from…”Teachers day comes every year! And my dear parents are professors J”

On a cell phone

I love my cell-phone ….Why??
Not because it’s the latest model or a blackberry or it has high-tech features…because can appropriately be called my best friend…I don’t know why people use a mobile…I guess everyone has their own reasons….I use it because I’m expecting a call from my prince charming…. (Yeah yeah…..laugh your ass out!) But i'm serious!
I don’t know if it’s me or is it the hormones speaking cause I just began my day by watching a movie “What’s Your Number” Don’t worry guys if you haven’t heard of it…it’s not an epic movie that you HAVE to know the name! It’s just another cute romantic flick with a cute n desperate gal in search for love and a smart hero who comes into her life unknowingly and changes everything ( well not everything but pretty much! You know….she starts laughing and living life n stuff! Typical Karan Johar Material) they finally get together wear she hitch-hikes jus to propose her love to him n they kiss…..
End-Happily ever after!
I know I got to be definitely crazy to think if such stuff would happen to me but I don’t know! My stupid-stupid brain just wouldn’t accept it…..(I know you were expecting me to use heart instead of brain….but c’mon guys? Heart is a blood pumping organ! It does not think and feel! It’s always the brain!)
Anyways, coming back to the main topic, My mobile. I had a cell phone from class 9th and then it was all just for one thing forwarding msg’s (Not that things have changed much) but still now its calls,msgs about important stuff yet still I dream someday my perfect man is gonna give me a call.
But I do feel everyone has a basic purpose of using a cell. There is this one thing that drives us…! Hey! You can’t deny the fact that there is one call or msg that you dream was to come to you someday.?! For instance my brother I know is waiting for a appointment call from Mr Mallya to ask him to join his business as a partner. I know he’s pretty ridiculous for thinking such kinda stuff! But hat to say! This is the force that drives him….. m not a know-all person but I’m affirmative that you after reading my post till here might have started wondering what power drives you too? Well hope you find it soon! Not because its gonna happen; but its good to know oneself and one’s desires….
Like my heartbroken friend who I mentioned in my earlier blog hasn’t changed his number. And I know that every day he expects to something from his ex. But I never asked him to change his number. He deserves to dream and expect good things in life.
So hey you?! No’ one has the power to read your mind so don’t hide your thoughts from yourself and don’t be afraid to be you! Crazy or paranoid what the hell….you are you! Expect a call from the president or a miscall from Aishwarya Rai…You are the best when you are yourself!
Love the little crazy dreams of yours!! And you’ll live happily ever after!

Blame Her!

“She did it!” I explained to my very annoyed mom who was staring at me with condemn…N boy! Was she pissed!!
My sweet sister had evidently burned her new sari while playing with the iron and had quietly sneaked back to the room and dozed off! 


RESULT:- when I returned home I had mommy standing at the door with a face( which I would say was not at all The “Welcome home sweetie are u hungry? kinda look”)..!!!


I tried to explain but just because I was the person in charge of ironing the clothes and since I did the foremost mistake of being born first I became the culprit…!!
Seriously! This is N.O.T F.A.I.R..!!!
Every time any major chaos happens at home all the fingers are pointing at their favorite direction…! TOWARDS ME!!!! I mean Hello???!! She’s there too….but nooooo…..Our lil angel is not capable of doing any of that stuff!!!
Paleese! Gimme a break!
They don’t know that there is an evil mind behind that cute innocent face!!!That… who knows … might be even working out an evil plan that could even destroy the entire universe while everyone’s asleep!!! (seriously)


Sometimes I wonder how cool it would have been to be a single child…Not having to fight over the ice-cream, or chocolates; or the most vital thing in one’s life………“THE REMOTE”. The whole world would have circled around me! I would have got everything I ever ask for. Maybe at this very moment I would’ve been on a world tour shaking hands with Obama! (Yeah yeah….I know! overdid a lil bit…..But you got the idea……right??).In short there would have been a hell lot of possibilities for me!


But then again life would have been boring and incomplete.
True that she irritates me, blackmails me when I don’t let her have her way, blames on me the mistakes she did, fights over my facebook time, eats my favorite piece of chicken when m not looking, messes with the computer settings………….
Yet……….Hey!?
I too actually, do the exact same things when given a chance..! ;)
So however fantastic my life as a lone child would have been…I dare not imagine my life without mah stupid sister! :)


N hey the elder ones are not always at loss! Reasons?? Chotu'z can be very useful in many wayz!
Well you can forward to him/her all the jobs given to you by your elders!
Can blame the petty scandals on them!
You always have an alibi at your disposal..
And if your stars favor you…you might also end up having a sibling with the same dress and shoe size!!
(Gawd that would rock..!! One will never run out of new attires! Super awesome right??? )
So all the people who are in situations like mine :) Keep smiling! We are damn lucky to have these monsters in our lives!!!